1492.  It's one of the most pivotal years in human history.  Humans of two hemispheres, neither of whom had been aware of the other, suddenly were, almost overnight, finding themselves confronting worlds that, literally, blew their collective minds.  No one would ever be the same.

     Sadly, however, although 1492 may have been a momentous and lucrative year for many Europeans, it was a terrible one for the natives of the Americas.  Hence, although earlier this week the U.S. recognized Columbus Day, some have suggested that it is perhaps more appropriate to term it "Indigenous Peoples Day."  After all, it is the natives of the Americas who, far more than the Europeans who slaughtered them, deserve to be remembered.  It is they who have suffered most.

     The worst of it is that in too many instances this slaughter was justified in the name of Christianity.  It was an awful stain on the love of God.

     Historian Erna Paris once observed that, "Attaching God to history is the most powerful nationalism of all."  Whenever we try to juxtapose God and the history we are unconsciously creating, we erect a line we cannot possibly cross:  the boundary between what is here, and what we think should be, the difference between the visible speculations of finitude and the hidden certitudes of infinity.  We falsely think we can speak for God.

     Whatever your perspective, use this week to remind yourself of your so very limited view of what is real and true.

      In this era of the so-called Robber Barons of the technology industry, one might think of F. Scott Fitzgerald's Great Gatsby.  It's a story of hubris, massive and myopic social hubris driven by an equally blind financial hubris, two currents of a mistaken pride that overturned a life to a point beyond redemption.

     Some of you may work in the technology industry, some of you may hold stock in the technology industry.  All of us benefit from knowing and using it.  Even as I write this blog, I am acutely aware that I would not be able to do so without the help of Google and its parent company Alphabet.  And I wager that many of you order items from Amazon with some degree of regularity, and appreciate its seemingly efficient service.

    Few of us take time to look beneath the surface of the industry.  Neither did Gatsby take time to consider the implications of his financial and social success.  He just lived in them, repercussions and consequences aside.  As do, to a point, many of us.  We do not often take stock of how thoroughly dependent we are on industries that, although they proclaim to be making our lives better, rarely do they allow us to stop and deliberate about what "making our lives better" really means.  As they define it?

    Fitzgerald's enduring masterpiece reminds us that yes, we all appreciate social connections and technological ease, but it also reminds us how little we know where they will, in the long run, lead to.  How are we to measure the fruits of worldly "success"?

    Surely not by the success itself.  Because Gatsby valued his world by the values of that world, he fell, badly.  As will, unless we look up from our busy lives, we.

    Ease of living is not the point.  Meaningfulness is bigger than next day delivery.

 

     

 If we are honest with ourselves, we will admit that we do not always do the right thing.  No one among us eludes our own fallenness.  We all, as many religions put it, sin.  We all do not always do what pleases or sustains the divine fabric of the universe.

 

Few religious groups understand this as well as the Jews.  Beginning tonight, Jews around the world celebrate Yom Kippur, the "Day of Atonement."  On this night, Jews acknowledge their sinfulness before God.  They admit their wrongdoing, own up to their prevarications. And they repent.  They tell God they are sorry for disobeying and violating his commandments and laws.  Then they announce their intention to begin anew to live lives that please their creator.

     So the Jews have done for many centuries, and so they will do for many centuries more.  Their faith remains.

     Although we may not agree with the specifics of the Jewish approach, and though we may not see wrongdoing in quite the same way, we must all admit that, to repeat, we do not always do the right thing.  Every one of us is (or ought to be) aware that, at times, he or she upsets the delicate balance of freedom and order that governs the cosmos.

     Moreover, if this balance is to be more than relative, we must acknowledge the fact of God.  The Jews recognize this clearly.  So do Christians, and so do Muslims.  And so do adherents of countless other religions.  Absolute and therefore genuinely meaningful morality is impossible without God.  Otherwise, repentance is no more than shouting in a situational darkness, the darkness of an accidental, and therefore, as scientist Steven Weinberg observes, pointless universe.

 

    By the way, I'll be traveling for about a week and will not be posting.  Talk to you later!

    The movie "God on Trial" (based on an Eli Wiesel book, The Trial of God) depicts a conversation that a group of inmates at Auschwitz, the infamous Nazi concentration camp, had about, in light of the suffering and pain they were experiencing, whether God had broken his covenant with the Jewish people.  Does he really care about them?  An unbeliever who in his former life had been a judge agreed to preside over a trial that would address this question.

    At the trial, most of the inmates are critical of God for ignoring the suffering of the Jewish people.  If we are God's chosen people, they ask, why must we suffer so much?  Moreover, as one perceptive inmate points out, it seems that God, whom he calls Adonai, is not really good; he is simply on the Jews' side.

    This is a difficult argument to refute.  Do we, Jew or not, only view God as good because he seems to help us, because he seems to be on our side?  Are we really the most important people on the planet?

    At the close of the trial, the "judge" offers a measured response.  It is faith, he argues, it is the Jew's faith in God that is all on which they can draw in the face of this mystery of suffering.  Nobody else, he says, has this resource.  Everyone else suffers, and even though the Jews do, too, they, he says, have faith in God, a faith that, despite everything else, provides, in some way, explanation.

    Quite true.  In the end, regardless of what is going with us or the world, we can either choose to believe in God or we can choose to not believe in God.  To do the former means we believe that, somehow, some way, the world has purpose, and that somehow, some way, whatever happens does, too.  Nothing more, nothing less.  But the latter means that, whatever we think life may be, it, and we, have no purpose at all.

    Which do you prefer?

      

     Many years ago I had a conversation with a young man on his way to the Burning Man Festival in the desert of Nevada.  At the time, I happened to be in South Dakota, working on an Indian reservation.  As we talked, it became clear to me that even though this young man didn’t appear to have any use for conventional religion, Christianity in particular, he had decided to journey to the Festival because he had “to find my spiritual roots.”  Although he wasn’t sure what those roots were, he was pretty much convinced that the Festival was the place to look for them.  He was persuaded that amidst the cacophony of cultural expressions he would see there, he would eventually step into a place, a place of spirit, however he defined it, he had not been before.

     

    As we talked, I thought often about the opening pages of James Joyce’s Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man.  The person before me seemed a mirror of the young man Joyce so insightfully describes, a person alone and apart, untrammeled and free, someone standing on the cusp of his destiny, poised to find his path forward.  Rather like, I thought, German painter Casper David Friedrich’s “Wanderer above the Sea of Fog”:  poised on the edge of his calling.

    

    In the end, however, this young man told me that although he had definitely heard a call, a deeply compelling internal directive to find himself, he didn't want to learn about it in the framework of the Christian God.

    

    It was that fact of framework, he said, that held him back:  spirituality, he said, has no boundaries.

    

    Fair enough.  If an infinite God is there, then, yes, spirituality has no boundaries.  On the other hand, if an infinite God is there, it seems as if whatever spirituality we encounter will be grounded ultimately in him.  And how will we know either way?

    

    We will only know if God makes himself known in ways we understand.

    

    Ever heard of Jesus?

          It's a bit late, but I offer a prayer for Labor Day:

 "God the Maker, help us to look with love and renewed wonder at all the things that exist in part or in whole through the creativity and toil of others and ourselves. Shelter, food, clothing.  Entertainment, literature, music.  Medicine, vaccines, technology.  Personal care for those of any age.  Transport of people and goods, delivery of food and clean spaces.  Each day help us remember those who grow our food and ship it to us, who build our houses, sew our shirts, take our garbage, build our cars who feed us and bathe us.  And spur in us a hunger, O God, to honor all those who labor, to act for their just working conditions, to demand fair wages and protection, to join them in raising up a more just world.  You call us to mourn and act when the vision of Isaiah 65 is sinfully reversed, when people build houses in which they are not allowed to live; plant food, but go hungry; bathe our sores, but can't afford their water bill.  Let our gratitude for each one's service spur us to secure justice for each one's dignity." (Julie Polter)

    Amen.

   

         Creator of the novel Frankenstein (when she was but in her early twenties), Mary Shelley led a highly fascinating and somewhat tragic life.  Her father was the anarchist author William Godwin, her mother Mary Wollstonecraft, author of A Vindication of the Rights of Women (and who died shortly after giving birth to Mary).  She was also married to the outspokenly atheistic poet Percy Shelley until he tragically died in the Bay of Spiza in Italy in 1822.

    Although most people believe Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein to critique the Industrial Revolution's focus on the life of the mind while overlooking the supremely important place of the heart, and she did, there might be more to the story.  More precisely, Frankenstein is a parable about the limits of humanness.  In the person of the "monster" (who turns out to be far more intelligent than the 1931 Hollywood movie makes him out to be), Shelley provides an incisive narration of the ultimate emptiness of the human condition.  She powerfully demonstrates that for all of its magnificence, humanity is finally as confused and shallow as the world over which it purports to rule.

    Dr. Frankenstein's words, in the movie, upon seeing the "monster" move its hands, exclaims, "Now I know what it feels to be God!" speaks volumes about Shelley's vision.  What would we do, really, if we were God?  Would we create the world as it is, or would we do something entirely different?  And how would we know either way?

      Can any of us bear the burden?.

     Recently, my wife and I saw an amazing performance of piano virtuosity.  The piece was Rachmaninov's Piano Concerto #2, the pianist was Nobuyuki Tsujii.  The amazing thing was that Nobuyuki was born blind.  But this didn't stop him.  Recognizing his incredible gift for music early on, his parents and mentors ensured that he got all the training he could.  Today he performs all over the world.

    As I watched and listened to Nobuyuki play, I marveled at the remarkable display of human ability before me.  I also marveled at the way in which, despite being born handicapped into a broken and bent world, Nobuyuki found redemption in his musical talent.  Though the world sometimes undermines us, the intentionality with which it has been created grants that what breaks us can also redeems us.

    Redeems us not just for us, but for the entire planet.  We just need to wait for it.

     A few weeks ago, I was hiking in the Sierra Nevada of California.  I try to go there every year.  This year, I met my youngest sister and we camped at the same campground at which we had camped as small children, many, many years ago, with our two other siblings and mother and father.  It was a stroll down memory lane.  A good one.

    Although we visited the same swimming holes and had some of the same ice cream at the same camp store, we took some hikes we had not done as children.  In one of them, we drove twelve miles down an unpaved road just to get to the trailhead.  From that point, we set out into some remarkably spectacular country.  We saw no one.  As we passed by a set of lakes many miles from the trailhead, we caught glimpses of the Sierra of yore, the bucolic stretches of rock, tundra, and sky that characterize its higher elevations.  It was good to be "home."

    Which is the point.  Nearly thirty years ago I heard a message about starting points and home.  We all have a starting point.  Sometimes it is one we remember, sometimes not.  Sometimes we have positive feelings about this point, other times, not nearly as much.  Divining the meaning of our beginnings is therefore difficult: we will never know why we began where and when we did.

    But isn't that the point?  We're born in a mystery, a mystery which we cannot begin, in this life, to unravel.  And that's fine.  How shallow would our lives be if we could reduce them to complete rationality!

    Thank goodness for the wonderment and imagination of an unfettered and personal universe.

      Ah, August.  As this most glorious month winds to its conclusion, I think occasionally of some words of writer Patricia Hampl.  In talking about her younger years, she asked, "Is this a happy childhood--the unfettered experience of the strangeness of existence, the pleasure of being caught up in the arms of creation?"

     In many ways, August evinces the "strangeness" of existence.  Its effusiveness of life belies its silent and underlying prelude to and anticipation of the coming autumnal "death."  But existence cannot be any other way.  Even Eden had days and nights.  We love the shimmering glow of August even as we may cower before what follows it.

     Yet August's demise is hardly cause for alarm.  It is rather a call to rejoice.  To rejoice in the incredible rhythms of a simultaneously strange and wondrous creation.  To rejoice in a creation which could only have been set into motion by an equally befuddling and wondrous God.

     That's the glory, that's the mystery.  And that's the vexation.  But would we really want it any other way?

  

     

    Hieronymus Bosch, the late Renaissance Dutch painter, left us a curious legacy.  On the one hand, his art seems to reflect a wish for the traditional, the staid and religiously structured medieval past that the Renaissance left behind.  On the other hand, it evinces a desire for a breakage from tradition, a severing of ties to what had long been considered to be morally valid.  His "The Garden of Earthly Delights" is a prime example.

     In a way, we're all like Bosch.  Most of us appreciate tradition, most of us value the tried and true, and few of us entertain a wish to overthrow the existing order completely.  Conversely, however, not too many of us wish to maintain things exactly as they have always been.  We wouldn't be fully human if we did.

     Consider religion.  Repeatedly, the many religions which have emerged in the course of human history have advocated a new way, a fresh way of looking at the world.  That's their appeal:  a richer perspective on existence.  We may agree or disagree with any or all of the world's religions, but we cannot deny how they have opened new and, usually positive, avenues of thinking for billions and billions of people.

    It's tricky, this humanness of ours.  We constantly balance a compelling desire for stability with an equally compelling desire to undo it, to undo it for a greater day.  As we should.  God didn't make us to stand still.

       "Do not rejoice at your enemy's misfortunes," a Hebrew proverb says, "but want the best for him."  Or God will bless him anyway.

    In this era of highly polarized political dialogue and disputation, avoiding what we might call Schadenfreude (taking pleasure in the misfortunes of those with whom we may disagree) is difficult.  However, it seems to be the only way forward.  We demean ourselves if we suppose our integrity to be ours, and ours alone.  There is always a bigger picture. 

    And we do not paint it.  Although it may be easy enough to say that, well, one day God will judge all things and hold everyone accountable for his or her deeds, I'm not sure this resolves the issue.  We do not live in the "later;" we live in the here and now.

    Yet unless there is a bigger picture--and a larger vision of newness--we have no business judging anyway.

  

Ernest Hemingway

      Isn't truth a funny word?  Most of us appreciate it, most of us desire it. Very few of us, however, can define it.  Philosophers tell us there are essentially two ways of looking at truth.  The correspondence theory suggests that truth is simply that which corresponds to reality.  While this seems logical enough, it raises other questions:  how do we know what is real and how do we therefore know what corresponds to it? 

    Taking a different tack, the coherence theory holds that truth is the sum total of what seems apparent, logical, and right.  Truth is not fixed but is rather what appears to be most correct based on the prevailing evidence.  Yet how do we decide what is most correct and right?

     Though I see virtue in both perspectives, I won't try to reconcile them now.  I merely wish to make an observation about the necessity of truth.  When we insist that truth is relative or a creation of the moment, we are essentially saying that truth does not exist.  If so, we have no good reason to hold that even we exist.  If nothing holds, if nothing is sure, then neither are we.

     We need truth to be truth.  Otherwise, we became like the protagonist of Ernest Hemingway's Farewell to Arms, who, in the final scene of the novel, when he has just watched his wife die giving birth to his child, and then stood by as the child died, too, "put on his hat and walked into the rain."

    The end.

     He's most famous for his painting "The Scream," his portrayal of, as his biographer Sue Prideaux puts it, "the loss of meaning inflicted by the death of God."  But the Norwegian painter Edvard Munch had some insightful things to say about suffering.  

    "I must retain my physical weaknesses; they are an integral part of me.  I don't want to get rid of illness, however unsympathetically I may depict it in my art . . . My fear of life is necessary to me, as is my illness.  Without anxiety and illness, I am a ship without a rudder.  My art is grounded in reflections over being different to others.  My sufferings are part of my self and my art.  They are indistinguishable from me, and their destruction would destroy my art.  I want to keep those sufferings."

    And, "What is art, really?  The outcome of dissatisfaction with life, the point of impact for the creative force, the continual movement of life . . . in my area I attempt to explain life and its meaning to myself."

    However tragic we may consider "The Scream" to be, we can certainly thank Munch for his erudite perception of the importance of malaise and hardship in the formation of a wise human being.

    God is working even when we may not believe he's there.

      I've always wondered about the penchant of those who ascribe a totally material origin to the universe and yet insist that purpose is to be found in it.  Somehow, it doesn't add up.

     Making some of the same arguments that atheist philospher Thomas Nagel made in his 2012 Mind and Cosmos:  Why the Materialist Neo-Darwinian Conception of Nature is Almost Certainly False, physiologist and biologist J. Scott Turner, in Purpose and Desire, a book he published about ten years ago, wonders why, too.  Why do we believe we have purpose if we live in what Darwinian evolution decrees to be a meaningless world?

     It's tough.  Clearly, every living thing behaves as if it has purpose, be it a purpose to eat, to seek safety, to reproduce, even to consider the nature of existence.  Yet why would wholly material beings come to think of such things?  Can chemicals desire?  Can chemicals think?

     A thoroughgoing Darwinian evolutionist, Turner does not see how.  He does not see how mentally inert matter can exercise purpose.  Yet he believes in the Darwinian picture of existence.  And while, yes, he believes in God, he is careful in the course of the book not to use such belief as the way to answer his question.

     And maybe that's his point.  Unless a bigger purpose is afoot, unless a larger vision is working through the cosmos, we strive in vain to prove it has purpose.  How can we?  As essentially inert matter, we have no reason to wonder.

     But we do.  Everyday.  We can therefore choose to live with the puzzle of God or we can choose to live without ever being able to explain why we really want to live in the first place.

     It's the choice of a lifetime.

    By the way, I'll be traveling for a few weeks and will not be posting.  Thanks for reading:  we'll talk soon!

    Arlington Cemetery, which at 624 acres is one of America’s largest, is a study in valor and pain, a portrait of bravery, solace, and privation, the nation’s most revered place for the final earthly repose of those who have served in the five branches of America’s military.  For many, it is sacred ground, a hallowed site, one on which those who visit it tread with enormous respect and care.

    Why do widows and widowers bring their children here?  They want them to remember.  To remember from whom they came.  To remember what had been.  To remember to keep going.

    We need to remember.  We need to remember our lost loved ones; we need to remember those we lose in wars; we need to remember those billions of people we will likely never meet.

     

    But think about this.  We remember because we believe we and life have a point.  Yet if we have no real reason to suppose this universe should be here, what point is there to make?

 

    Memory is wonderful, yes, but memory only has significance in a remembered universe.

    Because we have been created with speech, the meaningful speech of a meaningful creator who freely chose to speak us and the cosmos into being, we have more meaning than we can possibly imagine.  Moreover, we know that because the creator is meaningful from afar, it is far more so when set before us.

    And it has.  This means that we will see and grasp everything--not all things--we need to know. To understand that one day, life will no longer be a frustratingly finite and heartbreakingly terminal mystery.  We will know.

    Yet it all begins, as does everything else, with speech.  So, speak.  Speak and experience who you are, speak and experience who you can be, speak and experience the truth about the way the world is made.

                                                    Speak, and find the meaning that is your true life and home.

    Do you remember the Bee Gees?  Although they perhaps achieved their greatest fame during the run of disco music in the Eighties, they had been making (and continued to make) music for many other years as well.  Yet for all their success, their lives have been marked by immense tragedy.  I was reminded of this anew as I read a profile about Barry Gibbs, the only remaining Bee Gee.  He tells a sad story of losing not one, not two, but three brothers.  First to go was Andy, dead at age 30 of heart inflammation.  Next was Maurice, gone at 53 from a heart attack.  Finally, there was Robin, who died in London, somewhat older at 63, from cancer in 2012.

    Although many observers have cited bodily abuse—alcohol and drugs—as the principal cause of these premature deaths, this doesn’t take away the pain.  Who wants to lose three brothers?  Life can be supernally wonderful, but it can also be insuperably tragic.  Yes, the writers of Job and Ecclesiastes make clear that people are born to die, that humanity is destined to suffer, and that life has a futility which nothing about or in it cannot fully undo.  But both books also celebrate the marvelous and amazing gift that life is.  "Enjoy life!" says Ecclesiastes 9.  Indeed: who thought of life?

    Not us!

    But here we are.  What do you think?

    For decades, cities (and countless freight train companies!) around the world have wrestled with the issue of graffiti.  Is it art?  Is it vandalism?  Is it both?  As anyone who has looked at graffiti with a dispassionate eye can attest, some graffiti is indeed art, some very fine art done by some very talented people.  Other graffiti is of course not worth remembering.  It's often an expression of personal displeasure or scorn, fit only to be painted over.

    At its core, however, graffiti is a picture of the human imagination.  And imagination is, by its very nature, the path to what is beyond it.    

    In the story of Jesus' raising of Lazarus, recorded in the eleventh chapter of John's gospel, we read that before Jesus raised the dead Lazarus, he asked one of his sisters, "Did I not say to you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?"  In other words, Martha, let go of what you think and focus on what you believe.  Allow your imagination to run freely, to run even beyond you.

    Clearly, the raising of Lazarus is many miles from the intentions behind graffiti, but they both speak to the same point:  we must learn to look at what we see through the lens of human imagination and the lens of a belief that imagination is only the beginning.

     With our eyes only, we'll never see it all.

        "The heavens are telling the glory of God," says the psalmist, "day by day and night by night."  But, it adds, "there is no speech."

     It is this enigmatic passage that Austrian musician Joseph Haydn set to music.  Although Haydn was very much a creature of the Enlightenment, he remained fully committed to the presence of a transcendent God.  Haydn wrote of God, and he found comfort in God.
     But this isn't my main point.  It is rather to say that those who believe in God frequently find the richest way to express their beliefs in what Matthew Arnold called the "perfections" of culture.  That in the greatness of humanness, divinity often finds its most profound manifestation.
     After all, did not the Word become flesh?

 

     "To be or not to be, that is the question:  whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer the slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, or to take arms against a sea of troubles and by opposing end them." 

    So wrote the Bard of Avon, otherwise known as William Shakespeare, generally acknowledged as one of the greatest playwrights who ever lived.  Ah, Shakespeare:  we marvel at his ability to write such striking and memorable poetry and prose.  We are awestruck at his insight into the human condition, at his ability to create such stunning portraits of humans at the peaks of triumph and the nadir of despair.  At his remarkable capacity for capturing life, for divulging the intimacies of what it means to be a human being.

     To be or not to be?  Do not we all ask ourselves this at some point?  Do not we all wonder why we are here?  What we should do?  Why will it end?
     

    Indeed.  We are only human, but ironically, that is all, Shakespeare constantly reminds us, we ought to be.
    

    And so, in this bewildering and astonishing world, is God.

     With millions of people around the world, I mourn the passing of Pope Francis.  Yes, he made some mistakes, and yes, he said some things he probably should not have said.  But Francis loved God, and he loved all the people he made.  He turned no one down, he turned no one away.  He sought to build a church that welcomes all, a church that is more concerned with inclusivity than doctrinal rigidity, a church that strove to, above all, let people know that God loves them.

    In addition, due to his position as the head of the largest Christian denomination on the planet, Francis had a degree of fame greater than all other spokespeople for religion.  He thus had extraordinary opportunities to tell the world that, whether people believe it or not, God indeed exists, and that he loves all people who do as well.  Francis kept the light of God at the forefront of the human imagination.

    For this, we should be grateful.  As the world continues on its merry (and no so merry, too) way, we all do well to remember the bigger picture.  That over and above all, there is a God who is infusing the entire cosmos with lasting point, purpose, and love.  Meaning prevails, hope remains.  Always.

    Rest well, Francis.

     “I have not an ounce of religious conviction in my body, yet I still feel the urge to fight with the forces of unknown walls.  It has almost become a necessary part of life for me, to always look for the next challenge, the next triumph, the next conquest, to feel happiness again, even if only for a moment, and think that, well, history may never have been, so shall we always remain suspended in the present.”  And "all that remains is to embrace the obstacle and the unknown, to fight for meaning, to encounter and fight through fear and dread, to conquer all."

    So said mountaineer Dougal Haston.  Born in Scotland, he learned to love mountains and climbing them very early in his life.  Strong, agile, and gifted with incredible stamina, he soon made his mark across the globe.  In the Alps, he joined an epic first direct winter ascent of the north face of the Eiger.  Later, he scaled the southwest face of Mt. Everest, the first person to do so (without oxygen), even spending, with his partner, a night just below the summit.

    And he survived.  But in October 1976 he left his house in Switzerland alone to ski a mountain face, a very dangerous mountain face, on which he had long set his sights.  While he was on it, the snow on the face avalanched, and he died.

    His body was found the next day.

    Some might see Dougal's words as the enduring human call to wrest meaning from a seemingly pointless reality.  Others will view them as the picture of futility, a senseless effort to find meaning when there is none to be found.  In a way, however, it's both.  We all live, we all die.  And we all look to make those years meaningful.

    Hence, the ultimate question is this.  Will we seek to encounter the meaning that is necessarily there, or will we strive to find the meaning that, absent viable genesis, will never be found?

        Today is Earth Day!  Established in 1970, Earth Day is a day on which we think anew about the wonder and fragility of the tiny globe on which we spin through this vast, vast cosmos. Earth Day is a call to attend to the ecological balance of the world.

    Many, however, deride Earth Day.  The reasons for their rejection are various:  religious, political, and economic.  And more.

     

    Perhaps Earth Day opponents should learn from the Greek mythological character Narcissus. So obsessed was Narcissus with his own image reflected in a stream, he bent down to look.  Enraptured, he continued to look, getting closer and closer until he put his head in the water and drowned.
    

    Are we so enraptured with ourselves that we do not pay attention to any other creatures?  if we ever suppose that we, we little human beings, are kings of the planet and therefore answer to no one, the world will drown us, metaphorically and, perhaps actually, too, in the effects of our ecological follies.  We will lose everything God has given to us.
    

    As the psalmist writes, "The earth is the Lord's and all within it" (Psalm 24:1).  Let's use our gift responsibly.

 

     "If there were no death, there would be no rebirth," the German artist Anselm Keifer once said.  Quite.  Keifer's observation recognizes the embedded rhythms of the universe.  Throughout the breadth and depth of the cosmos, nothing, be it a star, lion, or human being, can be born without someone or something, somewhere and somehow, experiencing death, of some kind.

    For anyone familiar with the second law of thermodynamics, which tells us that the total amount of matter and energy in the universe is constant, and that therefore when energy is lost, matter gains, and vice versa, this may not be a big surprise. On the other hand, the immutable factuality of this law simply affirms Keifer's point:  unless we live in a completely static universe (and what kind of a cosmos would that be?), we will confront, every moment of every day, this cycle of death, in some fashion, and, in some similar fashion, rebirth.

    Is some process of resurrection therefore imprinted into the fabric of the cosmos?  Absolutely.  Resurrection between matter and energy, however, is one thing; resurrection into an totally new life is quite another.

    Therein is the greatest mystery of all.  One in which, however, we all can rejoice. There really is, as one commentator once said, "Life after life after death."  Absent this, it's a pretty empty world. 

    "I went down to the countries beneath the earth, to the nations of the past; but you have brought up my life from the pit, O Lord, my God."  The Hebrew prophet Jonah, he of being swallowed by a whale fame, understood life well:  so is the fate of all nations.  None will last forever; none will endure indefinitely.

    Neither will we.  One day, we, too, will descend to the lands beneath the earth, slip out of this existence into another one, one far darker than this present experience, fade from all that we know and love, never to return.

    As I try to come to grips with the fact of Good Friday, the day of absolute nadir and blackness, the moment in which time itself ran away, the point when all that we love tumbled into the heart of the lingering darkness that it ultimately is.  It's a heartbreaking picture of the underbelly of all form and evanescence.  So I wonder about Jonah's words.  We will not know what death is like until we die.  And we will not really know life until it is gone.
    

      It can seem a cold world, a cold and insensate world, a world that for too many of us often seems to not care one whit who we are.  Or whom we one day might be.  We may tremble, we may leap.  We ponder our joy, we avoid our ephemerality.  But we are both.
    

    And what will we do?

     It's Holy Week.  Holy Week is about suffering, helplessness, and pain.  It's also about joy, pure and holy joy.  Holy Week takes us into the deepest of darknesses, yes, but it also takes us into the most profound of all light.

    Holy Week tells us that the end of the story is that on which we must focus most.  Indeed, pain is part and parcel of our lives.  But only part.  In Jesus' suffering, we see ourselves.  And he us.  But it is in Jesus' resurrection that we ought to see ourselves even more.  It is in that pivotal moment, that epochal moment in which God conquered death that we must look.  For it is in it that we see our future best.

    Consider the Modern Museum of Art's description of the painting to your right:  "The Disaster Paintings eternalize the real-life modern events we are faced with daily in contemporary society yet quickly forget when the next catastrophe occurs."
    

    Maybe, however, we're focusing on the wrong thing here.  Jesus' death presents a God who is bigger than disaster, a God who is bigger than the very darkest of pain.  Jesus died, yes, Messiah slain, but God lives.  And Jesus rose.

     And God is God.  Though disaster fills this world, God's power fills it even more.

      Last Saturday night was the first night of Passover.  It is a solemn moment, yet one filled with rejoicing.  At its core, Passover is about the faithfulness of God.  It remembers how, many centuries past, God liberated the Hebrews from a four hundred year captivity in Egypt, delivering them, eventually, into the promised land.  For this reason, around the world, millions of Jewish families gathered for the seder meal, the meal whose various components point to  liberation.

    And what is liberation?  It is to be free.  Physical freedom, yes, but more significantly, spiritual freedom:  redemption.

    It is redemption that lies at the heart of Passover.  And in this is an object lesson for all of us.  Though we treasure physical freedom, unless we experience spiritual freedom as well, we are spinning our wheels:  we can win the world, but we cannot win ourselves.

    There is more to us than we think.

     "We must keep dreaming, for dreams are what we use to celebrate life."  This is a line from Giacomo Puccini's opera La Boheme, which he wrote in the late nineteenth century.  Do not we all have dreams?  Do not we all use our hopes?  Do not we all dream to magnify our joy of life, to move ourselves forward to more good times as we live out our days?

    Absolutely.  Alone among the animals, human beings have the capacity to think beyond themselves, to imagine beyond their boundaries, to summon thoughts that do not seem logical at the moment, thoughts and longings that move them to strike ever deeply into the many unknowns and possibilities that life lays before them.  To celebrate life constantly.

    Dreams are the essence of life.  Remove them, and we implode and crater; we become less than human.  Ironically yet so fittingly, however, continuing to dream also leads to great frustration and angst.  When we cannot fulfill our dreams, we may crater, too.  But better that we dream than not, for as Puccini's character reminds us, the moment we stop dreaming, we stop living.

    Bottom line, we cease to recognize the power of the living imagination from which we have come.

      In a broken world, a world in which things do not always go as we wish them to, a world marked by tremendous joy and tragedy alike, we humans are prone to long for control.  Why can we not control the affairs of our lives? Why can we not ensure that we are not surprised by darkness?

     In this season of Lent, we have opportunity to rethink our longing for control.  Lent is all about giving up.  We give up our time, we give up our pursuits, we give up our lives, we give up control.  We recognize that we live in a world beyond our control.  We acknowledge that if we try to control everything, we will inevitably end up creating a world of us and us alone, a world without any real point except poor little us.  We reduce ourselves to a collection of atoms spinning madly in a nexus of space and time, avoiding everything but ourselves.

     Lent is one of God's ways of telling us that though we are remarkable creatures, entirely capable of directing the course of our lives, we will never understand and control it all.  We are finite, we have limits; our marvelous attributes can only take us so far.  Sooner or later, we encounter a bump:  we realize that we are not so remarkable that we in ourselves can decide what we are or what existence means. How could we?  We are only us.

     We are like the "Wanderer above the Sea of Fog," standing before the world, watching, planning, and waiting, yet bereft of ultimate control over that which we see.

     And that's precisely God's point:  in order to gain control, we must give it up.  We must give up who we are now to find whom we are destined to be.

  

    One of the most dazzling musicians of the Romantic Era, Frederick Chopin in his too short life (he died at the age of 39) composed a host of memorable pieces for the piano.  His works are marked by an exuberance of life that bursts with the sounds of memory and contemplation.  We listen to them and think about how his modest Polish origins blended with his relatively cosmopolitan lifestyle (he was well acquainted with Hungarian composer Franz Liszt and the novelist George Sand) to produce melodies that speak to many parts of our souls.

    As Lent continues apace, we find special call to remember Chopin.  We remember his creativity, we remember his vision.  We remember his angst and his too brief existence.  And we realize, again, that we live in a beautiful yet tragic world, that we dance on a very narrow line between being here and not, and that we, human beings, magnificent creators though we be, find our humanness most profoundly when we submit to the mystery of whom we may not really believe we are.

    But what we will one day be.

     

      Perhaps few people have been so convinced of the greatness of humanity (and the absence of God) as the twentieth century anarchist Emma Goldman, whose fiery speeches and voluminous literary output spurred on countless movements to set workers and, in truth, all humanity free, free from its oppressive bosses, free from its restrictive governments, free from its social conventions and, most importantly, free from religion.

     An unrepentant atheist, Ms. Goldman once wrote in The Philosophy of Atheism, which she published in 1916, that, "Atheism in its negation of gods is at the same time the strongest affirmation of man, and through man, the eternal yea to life, purpose, and beauty," and that, "Under the lash of the Theistic idea, this earth has served no other purpose than as a temporary station to test man's capacity for immolation to the will of God."

    

    On the one hand, it's not difficult to disagree with Ms. Goldman.  Wrongly interpreted, religion does tend to reduce our existence on this earth to a way station, a stepping stone to something much greater but which, absent a direct vision or attestation, cannot be fully proven.  In addition, religion, as it has sometimes been interpreted, tends to denigrate the human being, claiming that humans are little more than the spittle of the divine.  Also, needless to say, religion has, alas, been responsible for countless pain and wars throughout 

     On the other hand, rightly interpreted, religion has brought immense joy and happiness and meaning to millions, perhaps billions of human beings.  It has also provided many answers to ultimate questions.  Religion has brought hope.  While this of course doesn't make religion true, it certainly proves its worth in the human experience.  Religion is not wholly without merit.

     Ms. Goldman asserts that atheism is the eternal yea to life, purpose, and beauty.  Countless adherents of religion would assert this about religion, too.  But we can't have it both ways.  If humanity is solely material, how can it have eternal longings?

    It's hard to escape eternity.

    

     Shusaku Endo was a prolific Japanese author who passed away in 1996.  A life long Catholic, Endo wove religious themes into everything he wrote.  One of his most memorable novels was Silence.  Silence tells the story of an American priest who comes to Japan to evangelize one of the least Christianized nations on the planet.  Unsurprisingly, the priest encounters much apathy, even antagonism, as he attempts to carry out his mission.

    Eventually, the priest is arrested.  He subsequently endures what I can only describe as spiritual torture.  Slowly and steadily, his captors force him to confront the full import of the silence of God, to ask himself why God seems to be doing nothing to help him.  Why God seems absent and gone.  Why God has abandoned him.

    Subsequently, the priest appears to change his perspective. He rejects the Christian God and embraces the Buddhism of his captors.  His life is good.  Along the way, however, he sees numerous Christians, native Japanese who have converted as a result of Western evangelism, choosing to endure horrendous torture and painful deaths rather than abandon Jesus.  Even if God seems to do nothing for them.

    Even if God seems silent.

    Many years later, the priest dies.  Per custom, his body is placed in an urn to be burned.  As his material self slowly immolates, however, we read that he still has  one thing in his hand:  a crucifix.

    What of faith?  Even if God seems silent, be it for a moment or be it for decades, he is still there.  Transcendence may be elusive, but it is never gone.

 

     Did you fool yourself on April Fools Day?  Despite its frivolity, April 1 is also a day to remember one of the greatest of the Romantic pianists:  Sergei Rachmaninoff.  Born in Russia, eventually emigrating to America and, shortly before his death in 1943, becoming an American citizen, Rachmaninoff (my wife's favorite musician) composed some of the richest music ever written for the piano. His work blends intense and mournful melody with powerful and intricate chords and keyboard movements, beautifully capturing the deepest spirit of the Romantics.

    Rachmaninoff's music gives us a poignant window into our perennial struggle with the vast and unyielding import of sentient existence.  It shows us that however intellectual we may suppose ourselves to be, we are, in the end, creatures of heart and imagination.  We live as sensual beings.

    Rachmaninoff helps us realize that although reason is an essential part of who we are, we make our biggest decisions with our heart.  To put this in theological terms, although we may believe, as a matter of intellectual assent, in a particular religious tenet, we can only trust its truth for our lives with our heart.  Trust is the wellspring of rational belief.
    

    As much of Rachmaninoff's music tells us, though we live for the moment, we flourish in the eternal, however we conceive it to be.  We affirm transcendence even as we live in the immanent.

      With the advent of Spring, we also remember the birthday of Johannes Sebastian Bach.  Wrapped in the rhythms of vernality and spring, Bach's birthday comes replete with the sounds of singing birds, greening forests, and 

 skies.  And his music fits the season.  Fresh, bright, and resonant with joy, Bach's music 

 the wonder of the newly born creation.

     We thank Bach for what he has shown us about life, wonder, and Spring.  We also thank Bach for giving us a glimpse of the unfolding mystery, and the mystery behind it, of this vast, vast--and loved--universe in which we revel.

     So did Bach write on every piece of music he composed, "Soli Deo Gloria" (All Glory to God Alone).  Bach knew very well from whence all things come, that we are not accidents.
     

    In this time of great uncertainty we can be grateful indeed that the world has a point.

    By the way, I'll be traveling for a couple of weeks and will not be posting.  See you upon my return.  Thanks for reading!